Happy New Year

So instead of New Year’s resolutions like I saw someone else mention making intentions. I liked that so much I’m adopting that idea myself. So to keep with that new idea I had some intentions for 2018 to share with you guys. First I am going to try and write more blogs (one a month this year). I also think trying to do the things on the list above would be awesome. I am attempting to get healthier this year. I’ve given up on specifically loosing weight and thought working on something more attainable would be better, at least for my sake. I want to kayak more this year! 🚣‍♀️ I also want to get back to biking again 🚴‍♀️ (that was fun).

I want to BE more positive. So I’m starting small and seeing how I can do that more with each day.

I also want to read more books this year. I have tons of books lying around I have yet to get too… I got stuck at the end of this year reading a HUGE book, IT, by Stephen King. I’m almost done and think I’m going to try and read at least 5 books a month which woulf be 60 books total this year.

What else? I have a few conventions I have already bought tickets to go to but my intention this year is to attend them in cosplay this year!!! 😎

I also want to learn more loom knitting patterns this year. I am also hoping to learn how to crochet and weave this year as well! Possibly how to do Amigurumi would be cool…or how to knit with needles so I can knit Zombies!

A friend of mine posted this idea and I happen to have a big jar I’m going to empty and make this happen this year! Here is to not procrastinating and saying next year I’ll do…

I want to be present more in the moment. I’m going to try and limit the amount of time spent on all the different social apps. Use that time for being outdoors (kayaking and biking), reading, playing video games, hanging out with friends, yarn crafts, painting, traveling, and so much more I can’t even think off right now! The sky is the limit!

I have been going to therapy and it’s helped me. I’m looking forward to working with my therapist this year to work through my pain and sadness. My grief of my grandmother’s passing. To open new doors and move forward instead of looking back at the past.

Here’s to never letting go even when you can’t feel a certain way! One of the most profound quotes I saw and held onto last year. You keep putting one foot in front of the other foot and just keep moving forward.

So with much love and hope for 2018 being my best year yet (and hopefully the same for you as well)!!!




My name’s ‘Blurryface’ and I care what you think…

I wish I found some better sounds no one’s ever heard,
I wish I had a better voice that sang some better words,
I wish I found some chords in an order that is new,
I wish I didn’t have to rhyme every time I sang,

I was told when I get older all my fears would shrink,
But now I’m insecure and I care what people think.
My name’s ‘Blurryface’ and I care what you think

Wish we could turn back time, to the good ol’ days,
When our momma sang us to sleep but now we’re stressed out.

Sometimes a certain smell will take me back to when I was young,
How come I’m never able to identify where it’s coming from,
I’d make a candle out of it if I ever found it,
Try to sell it, never sell out of it, I’d probably only sell one,

It’d be to my brother, ‘cause we have the same nose,
Same clothes homegrown a stone’s throw from a creek we used to roam,
But it would remind us of when nothing really mattered,
Out of student loans and treehouse homes we all would take the latter.

My name’s ‘Blurryface’ and I care what you think

Wish we could turn back time, to the good ol’ days,
When our momma sang us to sleep but now we’re stressed out.

We used to play pretend, give each other different names,
We would build a rocket ship and then we’d fly it far away,
Used to dream of outer space but now they’re laughing at our face,
Saying, “wake up, you need to make money.”

Wish we could turn back time, to the good ol’ days,
When our momma sang us to sleep but now we’re stressed out.

When I came across this song… not only did the beat draw me in but it reminds me of a simpler time in life.  What if we could go back [in time] like that could ever happen?!


In the immortal words of Wayne Campbell, “Yeah, and monkeys might fly out of my butt.”

I was somewhat shocked as I was taking my niece and nephew somewhere recently that my niece  [age 10] knew this song.  She even sang along.  Little did I know, she probably heard it on the radio, but she knew the lyrics just as good as I do!  Although she might understand what the words mean… the meaning of the words to a soul with life experience is very different…at least I believe so.  I think all of us wish not to be stressed out.

When you get out on your own [and start your adventure in adulting] there are bills which if you want those paid you get a job… can we just go back to when we played with toys and friends.  Where are dreams were achievable and nothing could make us lose hope?  Music does that for us.  I think that is why is it so important.  I know the best remedy for me when I am stressed out is to either play my guitar or listen to music!  So pick your favorite musicians and jam to your hearts content and try not to be “stressed out”.  I will do the same.

#AlwaysKeepFighting #YouAreNotAlone #LoveYourselfFirst