(Pity) Party Central

Today I had one of those days from Chapter 11 knows as Stinkin’, Rotten, Horrible, No Good Day… I kept thinking if I could just go home and start over then it would maybe get better. Wouldn’t that be GREAT to have some space-time craft to go back in time and start days over? I think so and all my sci-fi and fantasy watching has made my dreams if only it were true… but that is not the case nor the #truth. I was at work and one of the first things I did was call my mom. It is her birthday today… and I wanted to see about taking her out to lunch. She shot me down because she rarely wants to do things with me… (I know this fact) but still it just HURT! So I tried getting up from my desk and walking to the back of our facility to cool off but I could just feel tears forming the more I tried to hold them back. Such is life… Then I have a few customers who are just difficult to deal with… I heard from 2 of them this morning right after my call to my mom. See how well I have (pity) party central right here at my desk from 9 am this morning until about 11 am. I even have these up at my desk to try to ward off bad days…


Still didn’t help me today. I am good at trying to do things on my own… you betcha. Then I started calling around to find someone to go to lunch with… found my best-friend’s mom and we went to lunch. Also got a lot of texts from other friends who were lifting me up! It wasn’t until about 10:30 in the midst of my (pity) party central that I noticed I hadn’t changed my calendar over. BOY when I read that is was like God had specifically made today’s topic for the bad day He knew I would have:

image(Pity) Party Central was officially over. I even shared today’s message with the friend who gave me the calendar and shared how it had made such an impact today! When I forget that God has my back he reminds me that I do not have to do this all alone. PTL!


#Peace within

God knew who I would become before my parents even thought of having me. God formed me in the womb. He choose me as a child of God before I was born. What a marvelous awe inspiring concept.

Jeremiah 1:5

“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”

Ecclesiastes 11:5

As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother’s womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things.
So on this journey sometimes I have not really loved myself as the person who was specially formed and created by God as one of His own. It has been when I was running away and trying to do life my way. It left me empty, sad, lost, lonely, depressed, and so much more. I had to realize that the old me didn’t realize the sacrifice that Jesus made for me personally. If I had been the only lost sheep He still would have come down to this earth and died on the cross. FOR ME! How could I not love, trust, have faith, and care about one who went through so much so I could be forgiven for all of my sins (1 John 1:9) and become a child of God through His sacrifice? When I do not love all of my which includes my overweight body how does that show faith in God’s plan? Well it doesn’t really show trust or faith in His promises in the Bible.
I don’t have to understand every thing God does but His peace which surpasses all understanding will guard my heart and my mind. When I struggle to be at #peace with my body or the storm raging around me I need to pray. I need to lean on bible promises like the one below which is a FAVORITE #bibleverse of mine…
Though the mountains be shaken
and the hills be removed,
yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken
nor my covenant of peace be removed,”
says the Lord, who has compassion on you.
Isaiah 54:10
One person who might have had a problem with events that happened to him was Joseph. So many things happened to him and most of them were bad. 10 brothers who were jealous of his status as favorite son. Dreams that he told that made not only the jealous siblings more jealous but even his father thought something might be wrong with him. Mother who died giving birth to his little brother. Then when told to go check on the 10 jealous brothers by his father the same family members sell him to a traveling caravan. Drugged to Egypt and sold as a slave to Potiphar. Put over Potiphar’s whole house hold… Assaulted by Potiphar’s wife..then put in prison. Made overseer of the prison. Two prisoners come in and have dreams which are explained by Joseph (with God’s help). One is put to death in 3 days…just like the dream. One is brought back to his position but does he remember Joseph like he said he would? Um no not at all… Joseph stays in jail for another TWO YEARS. Then Pharaoh has dreams that no one can interpret for him. Then the ex-prisoner remembers Joseph. Pharaoh send for Joseph. Joseph tells Pharaoh what the dreams mean by telling him first it is not Joseph but God who will explain to Pharaoh what the dreams are about. Then Joseph goes ahead and tells Pharaoh that he should setup someone to make sure Egypt makes it through the years of famine.

His divine power has given us everything we need for a godly life through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness. Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature, having escaped the corruption in the world caused by evil desires.

For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, mutual affection; and to mutual affection, love. For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. But whoever does not have them is nearsighted and blind, forgetting that they have been cleansed from their past sins.

Therefore, my brothers and sisters, make every effort to confirm your calling and election. For if you do these things, you will never stumble,

2 Peter 1:3-10

I have read this story so many times… what I keep seeing that astounds me. No complaining from Joseph at all is mentioned. Joseph had serious FAITH in God. I also kept seeing the phrase, “the LORD was with Joseph”. What if I consciously kept saying that phrase to myself… when bad things happen or good ones… “the LORD was with Carolyn”. What a difference that would make in my life and my struggles. All of my stress, my weight issues, my anger problem, family drama, and so much more would benefit from repeating that phrase. It would also fit the phrase I picked to work on from 2 Peter 1:3-10… PERSEVERANCE. I want to work on the ability to follow through with the issues I need to deal with and work on… I need perseverance to continue on with the journey and not give up so easily. (Which I happen to do quite easily most of the time). You see it is easy to keep saying yes to things but the Imagefollow up and finishing the project is where I am lacking. Like loosing weight for instance because I have done it before. I lost 25 pounds easy. Why can’t I do that now? I lack motivation to start what I need to do and I lack perseverance to finish the race. Our Bible study tonight was very motivational for me. One of the activities was to write a new plan for action of a way to get up and move… I shared my plan with you on the left as you can see… We were also then to right our name in the verse to make it personal. It sounds true to me that my flesh and heart may fail me and truth be told they have a few times before…BUT the good news (the hope you might say) is that GOD is the strength I need to keep going. Isn’t that the truth for us all? If we have faith in God’s promises (like the one I personalized) then we have the hope and peace that comes from putting all of our mistakes, failures, and problems in God’s hands. We can truly, “Let go, and Let God“.
I will call upon your name…
and keep my eyes above the waves
when oceans rise
my soul will rest
in your embrace
for I am yours
and you are mine.
your grace abounds
in deepest waters
your sovereign hand
will be my guide
where feet may fail
and fear surrounds me
you’ve never failed
and you won’t start now…
Words from the song Oceans (Where feet may fail) by Hillsong United that I shared at the first of this blog.
This song gives me #peace within.
May I continue to say, “the LORD was with Carolyn” all the days of my life…

Katy Perry’s Dark Horse, A Witch’s Brew at the 2014 Grammys

First time to reblog but I felt it was important enough that I should get this message out there…

Dark Horse: A Witch’s Brew


Dark Horse: Someone or something whose abilities, plans, or feelings are little known to others.

Recently, music’s most popular award ceremony, the 56th annual Grammys, took place in Los Angeles, CA. With a staggering 28 million tuning in last Sunday, the Grammys not only distribute the music industries “most coveted” award, a gramophone statue, but are also host multiple musical performances by pop cultures biggest darlings.

While there are many morality questions to be brought up with the acts performed, one of which millions of viewers attentions were hijacked to make a political statement on marriage equality; the performance that should bring alarming attention to everyone was Katy Perry’s Dark Horse.

Katy Perry grew up Katy Hudson, to evangelical preachers Keith and Mary Hudson.Katy attempted to become a successful gospel recording artist, but she did not find the success she was looking for. When she made the switch from gospel to mainstream secular pop, her career took off without a hitch, her first hit single entitled “I Kissed a Girl” was on the Billboards Top 100 list in no time. Since that time Katy released two more albums, one of which became the first album in history recorded by a female artist to have five number-one hits, and second overall, right after Michael Jackson. Needless to say this artist has become one of the biggest musicians of our day. With her goliath status, she naturally commands attention.

Last year, Perry released her fourth album, of which her latest hit single, Dark Horse quickly rose to the top of the Billboard list. What was Perry going for when she penned this song?  What was the theme or inspiration? In an interview with MTV, Katy said her sounds were “urban, hip-hop flavored, with lyrics that are “witchy and dark,” and described the song having an “witchy, spell-y kind of black magic-y” idea to it.

“Black magic-y feel”? “Witchy lyrics?

In our latest documentary, Pseudology: The Art of Lying, we look extensively the subject of hypnosis. One of the hypnothearopist we interviewed, Joan Packard, made an interesting commentary. She said that often music is a perfect tool for inducing a hypnotic trance because of the rhythm and repetition. She goes onto say that, “rap music is the most dangerous to young people because of the lyric combined with very rhythmic beat.” In light of what Packard said, how does Dark Horse, a hip-hop style song with witch infused lyrics, play out to the masses? Are millions of young people (and old) ignorantly being inducted into witchcraft?

As the performance begins, Perry starts out inside a giant crystal ball. A voice booms over the audience “She casts a spell, from a crystal ball, invoking the spirits, she’ll put you in a trance.”, mind you these are not part of the original lyrics. As Katy starts singing four demonic looking entities rise to great stature behind her, all having large horned fixtures. She then exits the crystal ball as other stage dancer appear all dancing around Perry in almost a possessed state. By the last third of the performance, three very tall brooms have been placed in the circle, where the crystal ball once was, and Katy is dancing seductively around the middle broom (very symbolic of the three crosses on Golgotha). The performance ending with Perry clutching the middle broom and the perimeter of the circle is in flames. Sacrifice?

What was practiced is nothing new. In fact this is a ceremony that has been practiced over the centuries. There was ritual meeting, a ceremony of witches in Spain called Akelarre or Witches’ Sabbath. At this ritual, the witches would celebrate and worship a the black he-goat god Akelarre. Artists and historians make the claim that the black goat was the devil incarnate. Music, drug induced, and dancing chaotically around a circle were an integral part of the ceremony.


Why is pop music’s darling performing her song in front of millions reacting a witch’s ceremony? Why should most us of care? Isn’t it just entertainment? Isn’t it just a performance created for shock value? However we want to justify what took place at the last Grammys, a witchcraft ceremony took place in a contemporary setting and 28 million people were active participants in this ritual. Was it a way to grant a blessing and open the audience’s mind to embrace and accept the later musical social-political statements? Whatever the case, bottom-line, pure evil.

“It is because he [Satan] has masked himself with consummate skill that the question is so widely asked: “Does such a being really exist?” It is an evidence of his success that theories giving the lie to the plainest testimony of the Scriptures are so generally received in the religious world. And it is because Satan can most readily control the minds of those who are unconscious of his influence, that the word of God gives us so many examples of his malignant work, unveiling before us his secret forces, and thus placing us on our guard against his assaults. Great Controversy pg. 517

Friends, we need to stop tip toeing around this subject of spiritualism and entertainment. It is not merely entertainment. As Christians we need to be at the forefront of educating people, loved ones, our own children, about the fire that is really being played with. If we are not at the forefront of educating our children, the music industry will gladly do it for you. I’m not proposing that we drown people in “Illuminati You Tube” videos or machine gun spraying Facebook timelines with “All Seeing Eye” gestures by Jay-Z, as a form of educating. We don’t need to sugar coat the matter, but the sledge hammer should be not the tool of choice. I am proposing we ask questions to engage people to think for themselves. I am proposing that we lead people to investigate these matters for themselves. I am proposing that the end goal should be to lead people to the feet of Jesus. By leading people to the feet of Jesus, desires and affections for this world will turn sour. By a connection to Christ and an investigation of Scripture, they will see for themselves the unmasking of the real Dark Horse and his agenda.

Remember, Jesus said “Be wise as serpents, harmless as doves” Matthew 10:16

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Katy Perry’s Dark Horse, A Witch’s Brew at the 2014 Grammys.

Gossip Girl


Wonder what they are talking about?

So I have to admit that today…well most days…I gossip in some shape or fashion at work. Sometimes about customers, sometimes about co-workers, and well you get the picture. I am either the one telling the “juicy” details to someone else or hearing about something that “so-and-so” did… Not that I ever have time really to waste at work doing this…just that is has become a habit I have let myself get used to doing that I need to break. Let me give you an example…Just in the span of a few minutes, up in the front part of my office, I was not only told something in front of the person who my co-worker was talking about but witnessed some “whispering” going on between two of my other co-workers who were talking about the other co-worker sitting in front of them though at the time that co-worker was chatting with another co-worker (hope she didn’t hear them talking about her)… whew and that was just in the span of about 20 minutes or so.

And besides they learn to be idle, wandering about from house to house, and not only idle but also gossips and busybodies, saying things which they ought not. 1 Timothy 5:13

As the verse states and I believe that Paul got it right… that we learn to be idle, gossips, and busybodies these days…even me. I believe that even the 10 Commandments says “you shall not bear false witness against your neighbor.” I know the actual definition of false witness is to lie but then does it mean that if you say something about someone that is true to someone else that it is okay? Best answer to that is another question, “Would Jesus gossip (say what you are saying) to someone else (even though what you are saying is true) about the person?” Jesus himself stated this in Matthew 15:11:

Not what goes into the mouth defiles a man; but what comes out of the mouth, this defiles a man.

office-gossip-afYou see the two greatest commandments that Jesus talks with us about is to “love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind, and with all your strength.’ This is the first commandment. And the second, like it, is this: ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no other commandment greater than these.” Mark 12:30-31. So when I gossip basically behind someone’s back about them am I really loving that person? No, I am not loving that person at all. When I allow someone else to lean over and tell me the “juicy” details about someone else am I loving that person at that moment? No, I am not loving that person at all. So now that I have determined that I have a problem and that I want to fix it…what now?

These six things the Lord hates,
Yes, seven are an abomination to Him:
A proud look,
A lying tongue,
Hands that shed innocent blood,
A heart that devises wicked plans,
Feet that are swift in running to evil,
A false witness who speaks lies,
And one who sows discord among brethren. ~ Proverbs 6:16-19

A perverse person stirs up conflict, and a gossip separates close friends. Proverbs 16:28

I feel I need an action plan in case I find myself in the situations I described above again…and let’s face it I know I will be as soon as tomorrow. SO as friend’s young child stated so clearly…”stop talking about that person because it is not nice to talk about someone when they aren’t here.” The father then asked, “Even if it is good things?” … to which the child replied, “Nope not even then!” If the child could politely tell their parents to stop why can’t I tell co-workers that I just do not want to participate in gossip? Then it comes down to when I feel the urge to spill the “juicy” details to someone else…or even tell another story about someone else even if I am talking about nice things. Do I pinch myself? Do I pray? Do I put a quarter in a jar? Maybe I should memorize a verse that talks about gossiping such as Proverbs 16:28 and every time I feel the urge to recite it to myself quietly… I think that will do it and if I keep wanting to continue at that point I can send up a prayer.

Lord, I struggle with this bad habit every day. I know that this displeases you and is not how you would have me act. Please guide me in trying to get rid of this bad habit. Help me to stick to my plan of action. Help me to memorize the verse in Proverbs and to remember to recite it to myself anytime I feel the urge to gossip. I want to be an example of you to the world around me and I cannot be that when I continue this habit. Please continue to mold me into the person you know I am capable of being to show the people around me who I am in You. ~ Amen.